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Maybe Later

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Finding something worthy of saying to an audience who does not listen has become increasingly difficult, I've found.

This place isn't really for me any more, I feel. Maybe I've matured passed it. Or maybe I haven't the time or care to put up what little art I make any more. I'm not for certain. No matter the question or the meaning behind it, I'm not here very often and even less often than that do I show any sort of sign to my watchers that I still exist.
But I don't mind. I've moved on. You should too if you're still waiting anxiously for my next mediocre post. It was over a long time ago, darling, and there are much better things out there for you to devour. I swear it.
I don't do much art, if any really, any more. I can credit this solely to lack of time. I'm a full time college student with two part time jobs. I'm not afraid to use the "overbooked" card. It's the truth. But I still do photography because I have to and I write because I couldn't survive without some form of release.

My point here is that I've lost interest in this site for now, I hate my username, I like to keep the rights to my things, I'm thinking about deleting my account, and I am found somewhere else on the internet. I've mentioned my new placement before, probably in my last journal, so if you want to know that badly just take a moment to look. Only if you really want to know, of course. I don't use that place like I ever did here.

So have a good day, a good week, a good rest of the year, and a good rest of your life. Until later my friends, watchers, and passers by. If it kills you to hear this, drop me a note and we might be able to figure out methods of keeping in touch for the long periods in which I forget about this place.

Hasta luego.

-Rose
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Summer

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Hey every one. It's been a while since my last journal, but for rambling purposes, I'm glad I've waited until now.

School is out, High school is over and I am registered and excited for college. I'm a bit scared, a bit concerned about finances, about homework, but I am so excited for what I will learn, who I will meet, and how I will grow in this new experience. It's really just.. Mind boggling that I've made it this far. Ha. Never thought I'd make it this far, but it seems I have. Well, I guess I still have a couple months to fall flat on my face before the fall comes. Hahahaha. We'll see what comes.
I'm so glad to be out of high school. I feel like it was actually holding me back. I had nothing left to learn there, no one left to build off of... Just an expanse of people in positions I've already grown passed. It feels good to be in this grey area between my childhood and my adult hood. It's exciting to be standing here on the threshold of what was and what will be with these blind eyes... I only have my ears to hear whispered stories of the trails and experiences that are to come. It's all so dizzying; it's left me with butterflies in my stomach, a smile on my lips, and a hunger for the future.  I am ready to be challenged.

Summer has been relaxing and fun so far. I've had a couple photo shoots, one that has not been revealed as of yet, and I've stumbled upon a new challenge that I am looking forward to tackling. Maybe one day, with all this time I have, I'll take pictures of all that art I made during the school year... I should really get to that. Meh. It's kind of aggravating that I haven't yet, and it's, in the same breath, aggravating because I have to do it. Just wish they'd take pictures of themselves. Have a couple things I want to draw too....
BUT! I am so pumped for an idea I've stolen and remade in to my own with the help of Zurifee. Here's the story:
I was clicking through StumbleUpon(awesome site, you should give it a try) when it gave me this article. This person wrote about how they came across this website that was just Polaroids. A Polaroid every day for fifteen years. A man took them and basically documented his life without words. The story turned out to be kind of sad in the end, but I took something from it. I wanted to do that too. Take a picture every day of my life for the entire duration of college to document how I grow, change, and turn in to an adult. Such an interesting and tantalizing idea.
I told Zurifee about it and we talked about the 365 projects where photographers do that for just a year and we also mentioned the projects where artists have a list of 100 words and they have to create a piece using one of the words. The two of us, being mad geniuses we are, cooked up a most splendid idea. Why not have a 365 project with a just as many words and each day you express one of the words on the list?
It was a genius plan, a crazy plan, it was just what we both needed. So yesterday we got together and brainstormed until we had 365 words for our year long project. She will be doing a drawing a day expressing the themes(making up for them on later dates if she fails) and I'll be taking a picture a day with the theme of one of the words(also making up if I miss a day). I may still, secretly, hehe, take a picture a day to document my college life, but this project will be challenging and exciting. It will help us both grow in our fields. I can't wait to carry my camera around every where and to complain on those days I don't feel like doing anything.

I had more to say than this... Argh....

I'm on Tumblr! Yeah... I put stuff up there... Personal stuff and stuff you may not see on here. You can take a look if you so like, give me a follow or something. Meh. It's all up to you. nostalgiasroses.tumblr.com/ I'm actually not overly active on there... I think I post at least one thing a week... Meh. Enjoy.

I think I'm going to be putting my 365 Photo of the Day project up on Flickr, which I'm also on... *runs quickly to go set things up* ---
*comes back like fifteen minutes later* There, I uploaded the first picture in the project and here's the link: www.flickr.com/photos/48882208… You can follow me there if you like, but it's no pressure.

Ahhh, I really thought I had more to say but I guess I don't. So... I guess I'll just abscond now. Hope you guys enjoy the stuff I'll be putting up soon and all that...

Good day.

-Rose
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Living Life

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Hello all friends, acquaintances and stoppers-by.

I'm not entirely sure what news I have to bring you other than my thoughts that are buzzing through my head in this moment. So, ha, if you don't really feel like wading thigh-high in boring thoughts then feel free to either skim or completely ignore this journal entry; as is the normal thing to do.

Well, to start things off, I suppose I have to give credit to The Black Swan for bringing me into this kind of feeling of writing. I just finished watching it a few minutes ago and I'm still not quite entirely sure what to think about it. The movie was incredible. Natalie Portman did an amazing job. She was so... Believable through the whole thing. She kept me on my toes.... I won't spoil it for any one you hasn't seen it, but it was gripping. And in every scene your grasp on finally understanding things is yanked from you as you are spun around again through another exciting twist. Wonderful job, just wonderful. I now know why so many people have done art after the movie. I've always wanted to do a piece involving ballet (since my poorly written story involving cookie cutter young lovers meeting in a dance class) and I just might, yet.

Speaking of art, it's going well. I'm sad the class will be over soon, though... The accessibility to endless supplies will be rather missed, obviously. Haha. And the environment is my refuge. Spend every chance I can in there...
I finished a collage today. Surprisingly enough, though, I don't think collages are my thing; must not be cut out for it. I did two collages, actually. The first one was under the theme of freedom, I suppose, and it just didn't turn out well at all. I'm thinking of using that piece as a prop for a photo shoot involving fire. But my second one, which I've finished/need to apply one last final touch to, came out much better. Still, perhaps, not quite like the idea in my head, but much better than the other one could ever hope to be, no matter what you did to it. Some friends and the art teacher agreed that this newer one was better, so my confidence was renewed.
A new project will be started tomorrow. A self portrait, go figure. I've done so many of those. Blah. But I guess I'm a little excited to be working with my favorite medium again; colored pencil. I wonder if he'll allow a bit of mixed media... Markers may be useful.... But hopefully this self portrait will be my best one to date and it can cover up the purple-faced, blue-haired work I have staring at me right now. It'll be fun. Portraits are always a good exercise. Hm... Maybe it'll get me back into practice for some prospective summer pieces, hm?

College is soon approaching and I couldn't be more excited, actually. I'm really looking forward to it. High school doesn't feel like home any more. I've had a taste of college and now it's all I crave for, you know? Things are starting to fall into place for this stage of my life and it feels good. Stressful, but exciting. I jut can't wait for school to be out. Can't wait to get a job. Can't wait for all the new things. Exciting, scary, refreshing.

I hope to do some photo shoots this summer. Maybe get a couple or more in. I just have to come up with ideas or have my friend/photographers come up with some. I'm kind of itching to be in front of and behind the camera all at once. This summer will be fun, hopefully.

In other news, my subscription ended a week or so ago. It's weird going from sixty plus deviations a page to only twenty something. I feel like I'm being robbed, almost. Haha. But that's the only thing I miss. I don't mind not being a member so much. Maybe when I get a job and get all stable and what not I can look into getting myself my own sub for a few months or so. Possibilities.

I apologize for not posting very much lately. I have a number of other photos from the Lost Time Traveler Man series, but I have yet to name them and I don't mind leaking them slowly. Also, my art teacher has held back a number of my pieces from this year and at the end of this semester I'll be getting them all back so I can get to photographing and uploading those slowly here in a few weeks.
Maybe one of these days I'll finish that story... I need to... I want to... But something is holding me back. In due time...

Life is good, things are moving, things are progressing, and I'm feeling alright. Probably the happiest and most successful journal I've ever submitted here. Ha.
Hope this wasn't a complete bore to you all.
Happy living, safe living, successful living to you all.

-Rose
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Greetings all!

I felt that there was a trend going on, a trend of updates, and I felt I was called to do the same... Peer pressure. Gets me every time.

Sooo!!! I just days ago reached my 9,000 pageviews mark. Can I get a woot woot? Yeah. Bout time... Llamas helped me with that, I'm sure. ^__^ Some times I get a little down about my lack of pageviews and then I just visit the GiveALamaGetALlama group and I feel better about myself for a day or so. I guess it's easy to be over looked when you're in a society with so many superb artists and the masses not being currently obsessed with your style of art. If only people liked reading more than quickly glancing at photos. *sigh* I'd perhaps be more inclined to write, then.

Speaking of posting new art... *cough*... I have realized that I have a number of pieces that my art teacher is hording from me. I haven't done all that much this year, I'll admit,  but there are still some things that should be posted. Maybe at the end of the year he'll be forced to hand them over and I'll have a short little burst of an art-submitting frenzy. I also have a sketch sitting here next to me. Threw down some lines last night out of the need to get something out of my head and to get a little practice in before I try to do this request/gift thing I've been planning for a while but not doing. The sketch is simple enough, but I think if we don't start something new in Art tomorrow, I'll copy it over to  some better paper and slap some color on it. Sooo, I should have something up relevantly soon if I keep on it.
About the request/gift art: I have my reference picture done(thank you brother for helping me with that) and I know what kind of paper I'll be using... I just have to get over my fear of wings and more than one person in a picture. I think I'll be able to do it if I just make myself.

Life is approaching! College is coming up soon and upon a dear friend's prodding, I'll be aiming for a much closer and private college... Someone please nudge me and remind me daily until I get that oh-so important essay written. I need to get it done. I want in that college...

And on to more silly and less stressful things!!!

I can't recall if I did this already,knowing me and my laziness I doubt I did,  but here is a cutesy little space filler and comment-bringer I stole from both :iconchowdercake: and :iconthetowerunknown::

Comment on this journal and I shall
1. Tell you something I'll learn about you by looking at your dA page for 13 seconds
2. Tell you which color you remind me of
3. Tell you my first memory of you
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of
5. Ask you something I've always wondered about you
6. Tell you my favorite thing about you
7. Give you a weird nickname
8. Tell you what I like most about your art
9. Challenge you to post this on your journal

There. ^__^ Again with the peer pressure. Man, I really need to find some originality.....

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Hey everyone. Long time no journal entry, huh? Ha, I guess I'm really bad about that... Any where that involves me writing words in a some what regular fashion, I fail. That's why I have half completed journals, letters and stories lying around me everywhere. Ha. ^^"

Well, any who, I would like to announce that I have had a complete turn around since my last entry. Well, at least, a  close to complete. I am inspired beyond my little brain's capacity and it's so frustrating! Haha. I have so many ideas for pieces of art and for stories. Heck, yesterday, with some help from a couple friends during lunch, I came up with an idea for a comic. So, because I haven't the capability to do a comic, I think I'll just try to doodle character designs and write a story to go with it. ^___^
Art class is going swell this semester. :iconzurifee: isn't with me any more :iconsadfaceplz: and it makes me really sad and lonely, but it's also a good thing(she'll vouch for that, I'm sure). I've gotten so much more work done now that I don't talk a whole lot, but I still miss her bunches. Makes me jealous that other people get to watch her make art. Gr. ....... :iconotaku4evr: sits next to me now, though, and it entertains me to listen to her talk about cosplay, making clothes, and the weird things she watches. Haha.
:iconpoopsnake: and I have come up with this awesome photo-shoot idea that has to do with the comic I mentioned earlier(comic came after photo Idea). I'm really anxious to actually do this. I just have to figure out a couple things and maybe wait for some warmer weather before :iconpoopsnake:,:iconzurifee: and I can go out and tackle this idea. It's an awesome idea(though perhaps different than you may think I'd come up with) and I'm seriously excited to get it out of me.

I really hope to be getting more art out soon. I have ideas boiling up inside of me and hopefully I can find some time between class projects and my after school activities to sit down at my desk and get pencil to paper. Really, you guys have no idea how inspired I've been hear lately.  


Here's a side-note/thought: If you guys saw my recent poll you'd have seen that I've been pondering on changing accounts. This is something I've been thinking about for years, actually, but it seems that there are a thousand more cons than pros in the situation. Although my username is extremely childish and lame and I hate it with the entirety of my soul, if I were to get a new account I would loose all of my pageviews, the vast majority of my watchers, people would think I was a n00b because it no longer showed how long I have been a part of the community here, and I would have a heck of a time trying to decide what all I should repost on the new site(time I would loathe to spend with rewatermarking things.). :iconthetowerunknown: suggested a good new username to me and I think I could use that or make something close to it, so a new username isn't really the problem, though I am still up for suggestions as always...So... If you have any better PROs as to why I should make a new account, please, fill me in, because I'd love to, but I'm thinking it's best to stay right here.


I'll end this rant/long journal entry here for now, I guess. Hope you have have a good day/week/month/year. Until next time guys.

-Rose

P.s. Ha, you think I put enough icons in this journal?

P.p.s. I got a new Canon Rebel XS (as you may or may not have seen in my new submissions) and I am in LOVE!!! His name is Roderick and he's such a good boy. ^_____^

P.p.p.s Thank you so much to :iconallzquiet: for another subscription! I wish you luck with your computer problems, hon!

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